Tuesday, May 25, 2010
My Very Best Friend
I am feeling much better today. I still have not done a whole lot but lay around. But I at least feel good enough to not want to escape through sleep. My dear husband Kevin, was juicing for me last night and Landri came into the kitchen. She asked him what he was doing that smelled so good. He showed her and gave her some of his wonderful concoction. Now mind you, my oldest child has never been a "green" eater, but Landri drank it down and said "it's good....but don't tell me what's in it!" Then today, Landri text me from school and asked me if we had anymore of that "juice stuff". I said no, but told her I could make more. So her and her friend Taylor came home with her and we all three pitched in and juiced some fruits and veggies. We enjoyed each other's company and we "did lunch" out of our glasses. It was nice to have them both home for lunch, but they quickly left to go back to school.
I will tell you that having breast cancer or any type of cancer is an awful thing to go through. Knowing that I have triple negative breast cancer I think is even harder because you know that it historically has higher recurrence rates and a nasty aggressive reputation to boot. Going through chemo blindly, not knowing if it is working or not, and being told that there is a 50% chance that it will fail, is a hard thing to swallow. Then you get to deal with the fact that there are no other known treatments if it does come back or metastasizes...just more chemo and radiation if possible. I know at first my husband had a really hard time dealing with this. I think he kind of gave up on me before I ever started the fight. Now, things are different. He is fighting with me tooth and nail. He has given me strength and courage and has shown me a deeper level of love and understanding than I ever thought possible. I know that there are a lot of people praying for not only me but him too. I can feel it and I can see a change in him like no other. He has always been a great husband, but now he is even more so. He is amazing and strong, yet humble. He has taken on so much for me and the girls. He comes home and takes care of me, the dogs, the girls, the dishes, the laundry, and so much more. I know this is a rare thing for most women to experience. I also know that there are a lot of women who are blessed with great husbands. When you take the sexual attraction and chemistry out of a relationship you get down to the bare bones of what your relationship is. When a woman is beefed up on steroids, bald, boobless, and tired....you get to see the skeleton of your relationship. What do I see in the x-ray of our lives? I see that I married my best friend in the whole world. He is not perfect, nor am I. He has made mistakes....so have I. We would not be human if it weren't so. So I married my best friend and the greatest thing is ....that friendship continues to grow to even deeper levels. Kevin, I love you more than you will ever know. The girls and I are so blessed to have you. You are the best husband and step-dad that anyone could ever ask for in a million years.
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