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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

The Spec On The Pig's Butt

  Thanks everyone for your comments and advice on nutrition and juicing.  I have had so many people tell me they are eating blueberries in my honor...LOL.  I knew I could make an impact on this world.  So tonight is a blessed chemo-eve and I am once again dreading the arrival of tomorrows infusions.  The good news is this will be the last time (I hope) that I will have to endure the effects of the Red Devil (adriamycin) and his friend (cytoxan).  You just don't know how glad I will be to get through this round of feeling like doo-doo.  I will still have four more chemo sessions to go, but they will be two different drugs with new side effects.  


I guess I should thank the Lord for the fact that as far as I know, the chemo is doing what it should.  The fact is, I don't know.  Because I had my double mastectomy first before starting chemo, there is no way to tell if the chemo is killing the cancer cells that may be floating out there.  In my previoius posts I have told you about my new friend Heather, who lives in Ohio and also has triple negative breast cancer.  Her chemo sessions have been stopped, as they are not working.  Her cancer has spread to more lymph nodes and the clavicle/chest area.  Unfortunately, there are no other treatments for triple negative breast cancer other than chemo for systemic treatments and radiation for the localized area.  There are trials going on with experimental PARP inhibitors.  Heather went to Columbus on Monday to see about being a part of that.  She said the doctor was stumbling over her words as if she thought there was nothing they really could do for her.  The requirements to even be a part of the trials are very strict and narrow.  Not many people even qualify.  During Heather's last chemo session the nurse giving her the Neulasta shot pretty much told her she needed to get her affairs is order.  So Heather is living on her faith that God can heal her and she is doing everything she can to improve her health.  Heather emailed me after her trip to Columbus.  I could tell she was disappointed and frustrated.  So I messaged her back with the following words....




Live each day to its fullest. NONE of us know when our last day will be. I am sorry it was so exhausting for you. Keep the faith and know you are healed. Just make up your mind and live your life. Put this cancer behind you. Just think of it as over. If there is something else you can do, then God will show you. In the meantime, you don't have to worry about it, because it is in God's hands not yours. Give it up to him and feel released from that burden. Tell God it is all his and if he wants you to take action in any way other than what you are doing now, to show you and make it clear. Pray for discernment to know when God is speaking. There are hundreds of prayers going up for you so don't worry. Now start living your life and enjoy every minute. Don't let this disease steal one more minute of another day with worry. God is way bigger. I truly believe that Satan is using these people, like the nurse who gave you your Neulasta shot, and maybe even the doctor... stumbling over her words. That is just Satan trying to give you the spirit of fear. Now you need to laugh at his ugly face and tell him your God is greater and by the blood of Jesus and by his stripes you are healed. Tell Satan he is messing with the wrong girl because in Christ you have no fear and "all things are possible with him who gives me strength". You tell that scum Satan that you will NOT be afraid and he is a little tiny wimpy stinky spec of dirt on a sweaty pigs butt. His "powers" are nothing compared to the works and the miracles God performs every day. And healing your cancer is nothing compared to so many of God's miracles. Satan, this is Penny, and if you are reading these words you are so stupid to think you have any way of stealing my sister Heather's hope, faith, or joy. You might as well go run and hide in Jesus' name because Heather is a strong woman of faith and when she feels weak, God has given her people like me to help pick her up again. He has given her an army of prayer warriors that are praying for her and cursing your name.....Now Heather, tell Satan to be gone in Jesus' name...and he can take his fear with him and shove it up his pitched forked tail! OK, now if the little booger decides to come back...now you know how to talk to him. I love you!---(Penny)

Ok, this is probably why I never taught Sunday school.  However, we all must have faith and "keep chasing the rainbow in the rain".  My good friend Vicky text that quote to me this morning.  Many times during our lives, our faith will be tested.  Having your health decline at such a young age definitely tests your faith.  We must at all times believe that all things God allows for the greater good.  We have to lay things at his feet and let him be in control.  In the meantime, while we are exercising  our faith, we must be aware of Satan's attacks.  It is when we are relying on God the most, that Satan works his hardest.  He will try to steal our joy, our hope, our faith, our confidence, and every good thing that God has given us.  So you must be on guard.  Do God's will, and be ready and armed for Satan's attack.  Most of all, fear not.  Put Satan in perspective to our mighty awesome God.  He is so small, and he runs in fear at the mention of Jesus' name.  

So I will go to chemo tomorrow and I will thank God for getting me through this...and I will be thinking of Heather.  It seems I think of her everyday many times throughout the day.  Heather, when this is all over and when we are both better, we will have to meet somewhere between Texas and Ohio for a girls weekend.  We will celebrate life, our health, and God's healing.  


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4 comments:

Tyler Brandley said...

Penny, If more people that teach in Sunday school would pray and give encouragement with as much empowerment as you have in this most recent post I believe we as believers would chase away all of satan's demons and they would tremble at satan's demands for them to return! You go girl!! I stand by you in agreement and also demand the enemy to kiss our feet and quickly retreat!

willow58 said...

You are never alone in the Spirit, Penny. Many prayer warriors and believers are with you every step of the way. Many folks are praying for you that you don't even know...Heather too. God promises He will never leave you nor forsake you.

jszmen said...

Penny, I am praying for you as you have your chemo today. I never thought I would laugh while reading a blog from someone fighting TNBC. I laugh and cry at the same time. The Lord has given you the gift of writing and you are using it for His honor and glory. And you are teaching us not only about TNBC but also teaching us how to fight and pray and trust. I wish I had had a Sunday School teacher like you. From now on, Satan is just a "spec on a pig's butt" to me. Thanks for that image! Just know that "Uncle Jim" and I have you in our prayers. With love and many prayers, "Aunt" Sharon

benat768 said...

Penny, I know you probably don't remember me. Cindy Allen is my cousin and I met you several times back when we were all in high school. I just wanted you to know Im following your blog daily and praying for you and your friend Heather. I think you are a wonderful encouragement to others who are going thru this too. Keep the faith and stay strong we will all be praying for you!